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Source: Heartdwellers
Well,
my precious family, I cannot withhold
from you my weakness and the
Lord's incredible kindness.
He
answered me and said, "My
dove, you're just like everyone else
around this time of the year.
Sad, but true. Although in the
past, when you were without a
little discretionary money, it was
easier. But I am very happy that
you are spending money on others.
In that regard, I am proud
of you. But you're still a
work under construction.”
And
to explain that, if a donation
comes in, we set a certain
amount aside for other people, so
that we have a fund. And some
of you have earmarked some of
the money that you've sent us
for that very thing. We appreciate
that -‐thank you so much.
We're making quite a difference in
the community.
“It
just hurts so much when I see
Ezekiel hurting and you crying, Lord.
I guess I just don't know
how weak I am until a
temptation is put in front of
me.”
When
we were living on $300 a month,
barely surviving, I thought I was
over my black panther. But now
that we have a little extra, I
am discovering just how vulnerable I
am. A woman may think she
is honest, until she is presented
with an enormous temptation. Then she
can find out exactly how weak
she is. God help us all.
He
continued:
“Moving
along. To all My OCD
Brides...(Obsessive/Compulsive Disorder) Understand
that this time of the year is
loaded like a spring bear trap
to slam your foot into debt and
tie you down with obligations you
will have to struggle to meet
for the rest of the year.
“Satan
is behind this, as in all sins
of the flesh. I wish for you
all to be smarter than your
adversary. I am not pleased
with you going into debt in My
Name. Rather, I would love to see
you stay very simple and focused
on My Birth. Doing little
things with your children to make
My Birth a memorable occasion, not
joining hands with the harlot and
turning it into an occasion of
sin.
“Do
not hearken to the naysayers who
criticize this time of the year.
There is much grace released from
Heaven during this season if it
is handled properly, with the right
heart-‐and avarice and greed have
not entered in. For instance,
the plays that are reenacted at
churches are wonderful for telling
the real meaning behind the season.
Do you know, My angels are
present at those events to bring a
sweetness and conviction, that a
child will never forget? And even
the adults are being drawn to
Me. Oh, how glorious it is to
see hearts changed as they ponder
My incarnation.”
Here,
I just want to share something with
you guys -‐I just have to
insert this. During the Christmas
season, on TV over 30 years ago,
they were showing the birth segment
of Jesus of Nazareth. Franco
Zeffirelli's film. This was five
months before my conversion. I
was deeply into the New Age, but
watching this changed something inside
of me. I felt SO drawn to
Jesus, I felt God tugging on my
heart. The REAL God. I didn't
know Him yet, but I could feel
the power of that grace, working
through that movie. And that movie
is anointed, it reveals a sweet
side of the Lord, that at time
-‐30 years ago, was not
popular.
So,
I felt the Lord tugging on my
heart when, just 5 months after that,
He visited me.
But
I was so steeped in lies and
darkness, I couldn't sort it all out
until that spectacular event happened
on May 5th, that forever changed
my life -‐when Holy Spirit
descended from Heaven and set me
on fire for 45 minutes. Guys, I
was sitting under a copper pyramid
meditating on the Mayan Tarot deck
-‐that's how deep in darkness
I was.
I
was looking for Truth, really,
sincerely from my heart looking for
Truth and for the real Faith.
My eyes were closed and all of
a sudden, I saw in the spirit
this black sky parting, and this
lightening dove just descending out
of Heaven, all the way down
into my heart. It just set my
whole body on fire for 45
minutes. It was so intense that
my husband said, "What's going
on? You are glowing!"
And by infused knowledge God
-‐because I didn't know who
Holy Spirit was-‐God led me to
know I was being visited by
Holy Spirit.
So
I said, "This is a visitation
by Holy Spirit!" And during this
visitation, I was deeply convicted of
my sins. You know, if you're a
New Ager, you don't have "sins"
-‐just poor choices. And I was
deeply convicted of my sins and
repenting in rivers of tears as
His Love embraced and forgave
me...His love just overpowered me. I
mean, I saw myself worse than
sewer excrement when I saw my
sins, and to have Him embrace
and love me!
I
didn't see Jesus, I just felt
the embrace of His love. It was
an amazing thing. I didn't even
know what it was exactly, word
for word, but I recited parts of
the 51st Psalm.
And
these are parts that I remember:
1
Have mercy on me, O God, blot
out my transgressions.
2
Wash away all my iniquity and
cleanse me from my sin.
3
I know my transgressions, I have
sinned and done what is evil
10
Create in me a pure heart, O
God, and renew a steadfast spirit
within me.
11
Do not cast me from your
presence. Please don't cast me from
Your presence -‐ever! or take
your Holy Spirit from me.
12
grant me a willing spirit, to
sustain me. Teach me Your ways.
I
mean, I just sat there and
recited that. And later I found
-‐I think it was like 15
years later, maybe less, I found
out it was the 51st Psalm, the
Psalm of repentance.
So,
whether or not the Lord was born
on that day is totally irrelevant,
He is using that day to bring
an awareness of Himself to lost
humanity that is sitting in such
darkness. Of course Satan jumps
right in on the heels of that
with greed, avarice and partying.
At
this point, the Lord started talking
again, and He said,
"Well
said. That is exactly what has
happened, especially in this secular,
godless age, where man has become
his own god, with no need for
Me. So, I take this rare
opportunity to focus on My Birth
that the little ones might be
drawn to Me. But even now the
enemy has worked day and night
to remove even that remembrance of
My birth and meaning from Christmas,
to the point where to display
the manger is a criminal offense in
this country!
“And
for those of you who are
naysayers, it should be obvious to
you that this time of the year
IS a threat to Satan or he
would never work so hard to blot
it out of the world.
“But
you, My Brides, My highly honored
ones, please-‐uphold My honor and
do not fall prey to the world,
giving into impulses to shop and
take advantage of sales that are
deliberately set up to make you
fall into materialism. I have no
problem with a modest list of
things you've needed for your ministry
or to help others, or a few
personal items. But please do not
allow it to get out of hand
and trap you into immobilizing
personal debt. Uphold my honor,
My cherished ones.
“What
you do for the poor shall be
forever remembered and credited to
you. But stay in My grace, not the
unction of the prowling unclean
spirits that seek to entangle you
and take your hearts away from
Me.
“I
forgive you for your indiscretions. Go
now and sin no more.”
This is an excerpt. For the full text, go here
Source: Heartdwellers
