January 26, 2017Oh, my dear family of Heartdwellers, I need your prayers. I have been barraged with distractions this week. I understand, my perfectionistic streak likes to see everything working and in order, so when things get lost, misplaced, broken, jammed... I like to take the time to fix it right then and there so I have what I tell myself I need.
Last week my dog got out and because he had lost his collar to his little playmate on the other side of the fence, he didn't have an owner. But the Lord triumphed anyway and he was returned to me. But I made a resolution to get him another collar with tags. Having done that, yesterday that collar disappeared when I went to put another tag on it. I saw it lying in the snow in the neighbor's yard but I couldn't get into the gate and they weren't home. So, I was thinking 'I'll use a fishing pole and hook to catch it'.
And then I thought, 'You know what? This is a huge distraction. I'm going to go back to the Lord.' So, the whole thing took me out of prayer. I left a note on the neighbor's door, and they threw it over into our yard and I felt convicted that I needed to thank them, because we have had issues in the past. So - here I was motivated by the fear to make sure if my dog got out again, that he'd get back to me. And I allowed that to take me out of prayer.
I felt sure that the Lord wanted me to send this letter to them, and my handwriting lately has not been good. So I typed it out, went to print it, and viola! the printer wouldn't work. So, I called the tech department and we went over it for an hour and it still didn't work. At the very first impulse to write the letter, I should have waited until I was out of prayer. But I didn't, reasoning to myself, 'Oh, it will only take a minute'. Right.
Lord, this has been a rotten, miserable, impossible day. I understand that I've had a major part in that, what I have done this week in being house-crazy, compulsive-obsessive compulsive. But I don't understand today. I wanted to honor what I felt You were saying, but the printer wouldn't work. Please speak to me.
It's what I want with all my heart, Lord - but things keep presenting themselves.
"You must get ahold of yourself and put a stop to this."
I was thinking of the lame lasagna I pulled out of the freezer and I was going to add some things to it - frozen spinach and stuff. Even while I was gathering ingredients my conscience was telling me...'another trap, get back to prayer, you have something to eat already.'
Yes, I guess I do. All my Bible and holy book readings today talked about how the Israelites angered the Lord by their adultery. Even the quail they complained against God to have, spoke to me. I was hoping they weren't about me, these different reading in the Psalms, addressing this issue...but they were about me.
What the Lord is talking about here is, there's a sound proofing I had asked the volunteer to do, because the sound from Ezekiel's room and my room were getting crosswise, and I wasn't able to concentrate on my music, and he wasn't able to concentrate on his. So I asked our volunteer to please put some foam up between the two walls to cut out the sound. But it turned out to be a huge project. It took the whole afternoon. We didn't get to our correspondence and other things.
"As your husband said to you, 'Turn away from these things that are calling to you.' You are not the only one going through this. The enemy has taken on a full--scale war of distractions with My Body to keep them from serious prayer and the works I've called them to.
"The things I want to launch you all on are very important to Me and the graces are running very strong right now and all of you need to get into the slip stream of My grace and go with the flow. The enemy is trying to kick you out and lead you off on a wild goose chase.
"Ask yourself, 'Is this absolutely urgent vital or can it wait?'
"Let me give you an example: paying your electric bill before you are cut off is absolutely vital. Fixing a leaky faucet can wait. Feeding the fire before the house gets cold is vital; making a week's worth of lasagna is not. (I was going to stretch it with veggies, and the Lord said, "I'd rather you NOT do that. Eat what you have prepared and focus on Me.")
"I cannot stress this enough. Common sense should have told you not to take all that food out of the freezer, but just to make do."
So, I got up and put everything back in the freezer. And made my protein drink, and while doing that I began to see where I have been stiff-necked and self-indulgent, careless - even reckless, trying to get things done really quickly to get back to the Lord. And that, in turn, has endangered my health. You know, that 'type A' behavior?
I get it Lord. I am needing Your grace more than ever in my life right now. I am no match for my enemies and my flesh, but with Your help...
"Never presume on My Mercy. What I might forgive, My Father may step in and call a halt to. You don't want to be in that place. It is a vast desert with hardly any water. There the scorpions sting and the snakes writhe and the soul who has worked their way into that place suffers severe remorse. So, I am asking you all - be attentive to My graces and do not take Me for granted.
"You see there are very high winds at the elevation we are climbing to, and those winds are powerful. Your resolve to use great wisdom and obey Me must be greater.
"That said, Clare, you're going to make it. You really are, My Beloved. But you must apply yourself now, right now, more forcefully against the enemy's insinuations. It is up to you My Dearest, truly it is up to you.
"Now I grant you My forgiveness. Please, get up out of your pit of compulsions and walk with Me in peace, joy and bliss as we pray and create together. I love you. I love each one of you, Heartdwellers - beyond what you can comprehend or you would die on the spot. THOSE WHOM I LOVE I CHASTEN.
"So all of you, My exquisitely beautiful Brides, apply yourselves to the graces I am imparting and do not allow the enemy to toss you around like a football. Every time you go off on a distraction, they get points and make a goal. And you get further behind in My will. Don't put them in the winner's position. Fight them with all the strength and graces I give you. After all, is it so hard to say NO? That's what I'm counting on you to do. Look away and say NO! Then take My hand as we walk together into the glorious work we have to do with one another.
"Don't let the high winds of distractions blow you off course."
Source: Heart Dwellers
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