Well, my precious Heartdwellers, the Lord is truly leading and guiding us and teaching us. And He always makes good out of our mistakes. We can trust Him to be a turn-‐around specialist that corrects things when they go the wrong way.
“Still you have moments of weakness. And...when I see pride raising it’s obnoxious head, (yeah, I started to feel that the other day. I thought, 'Oh, man -‐I'm in for a fall, I can feel it coming on...') I am obliged to humble you...so I stand back just a very little bit and allow you to go off on your own. I always get good results with this. You should know by now, when you feel insecure about doing something, a good rule of thumb is ‘don’t do it.’ However, your desire nature trumps your wisdom and off you go. It still is all about self-‐will, self-‐love, pride and avarice.
“When you are totally dead to yourself and the world and you love Me more than anything or anyone...well, you won’t go flying off. Something inside, a governor will check your action and your desire nature will be left in the dust to rot and disappear, as it should.
“This is that fateful time of the year when everyone is getting the very same impulses. There is much evil behind it, but a truly meek soul walks through it as if it were nothing. I don’t care how many demons are or aren’t tormenting you -‐ the bottom line is that virtue is a steel wall they cannot penetrate. They may try to torment you, suggest, flash with passions for things, and trip you in a million different ways. But if you have wisdom and self-‐control, as well as Me in mind at all times, their most powerful weapons against you are worthless.
“So now we are in the cleanup stage.”
And right around that time, my email went off and one of our prayer warriors sent me a link to The Priestly Bride by Anna Roundtree and told me to listen to the minutes between 40 and 50. Wow, did that ever nail it -‐and it was funny, because I'm sitting in here listening to the Lord, and all of a sudden she came to mind as someone I needed to share this with, personally. And Bingo! There comes the email. And I listened to Anna Roundtree for 10 minutes, I listened to that segment, and it really nailed it. I just felt a lot of conviction. And part of it had to do with seeking the Lord for Himself rather than seeking the Lord for the anointing or for the message. And we've talked about that before -‐that's super important for the Bride.
And the Lord began again,
“Clare, you do seek Me for Me...you do. But you still don’t trust Me. That is why in some challenging situations, you prefer your own will, even though you sense it is at odds with Mine. So, can we fix this? Of course, with your cooperation we surely can. It can take days, weeks or years, depending on your willingness. (Not that we have years, guys. We don't have years!) We have been at it for years. That is something others can ponder and derive hope from.”
Yeah, don't feel bad, guys. He's been working on me in this area for years.
He, continued, "Oh we are close, so very close, but there is still that vestige of ‘I’ in your heart. And it steers you off the road of sanctity. Someday you will see this and not permit yourself that anymore. Someday. I am not saying you have not made progress, you have made wonderful progress, but, there still is a bit to go...and I am going with you, hand in hand. I will not abandon you to the will of your enemies: thieves, brigands and murderers, waiting behind the bushes and rocks as you walk this road with Me. I will not abandon you to their will. I will defend you so long as you stay to the straight and narrow. And not let go of My hand -‐not even for a moment. When you stray, My love, I must allow the lessons that go with self-‐will. I must allow you to suffer the consequences… so it will be deeply embedded in your heart and mind. My way is always the Best Way. Even if you have to guess at it, and deduce it by your own reasoning, it is still the best way. You know Me, Clare, you know what I think about most things pertaining to you, so it shouldn’t be difficult to make the right decisions. It’s all a matter of crucifying your flesh, y Love-‐es, putting that old man to death, buried deep in the earth he is from. Then you will be free to glide and soar with Me, and nothing shall be able to knock you off track.
“Your life shall become simple, plain, easy. Wouldn’t you like that?"
I most certainly would, Lord.
"Well then, trust Me, trust My judgment, Trust My wisdom, trust that My entire heart for you is blessing upon blessing, not burden upon burden. And not deprivation. Then you will stay free, My little dove, and not be captured so easily in the enemy’s snare.
“So now, trust Me, put your hand in Mine and we will negotiate this wilderness road without further casualties. And yes, that which was meant to harm you, has become a lesson for all My Brides...with the added unction of your sufferings offered to Me for them. The wicked ones always lose. The greater the difficulty, the greater the lesson, the greater the graces spread abroad to all My Brides. Satan cannot win. Even if he should succeed in causing physical death, ten more will spring up in the place of that one. He never wins. Put your fears away. You're not going to die. I'm just using that as an example.
"I bless you now, Precious. And all My precious Brides, with the anointing to put to death the Old Man, that he may not raise his head again and drag you off the path of righteousness and sanctity.