January
7, 2017
Well,
I wish every message could be bluebells and roses surrounding lilies.
But sometimes a little vinegar is what is needed. Oh, my precious
family, Heartdwellers - please, please don't ever be afraid to be
wrong. Prepare yourself for trials when you come to serve the Lord.
What kind of trials? The very worst...what I call
annihilation-of-self trials. Trials that cause you to almost cease to
'be' except for a thin strand of grace holding your sanity together.
I
have been broken this way on two different times that I can remember.
And it was always when I thought I was more spiritual than those
around me. When I thought that my relationship with Jesus was
air-tight and no demons could deceive me. And it was always when I
was flying high with Him, experiencing extraordinary things and being
promised extraordinary graces.
So,
lets get down to business here. This is a very important message for
discerning truth from error. Let me begin by explaining to you how
the prophetic flows in me. It is a matter of infused knowledge, most
of the time. For instance, the Lord will say, "I want to speak
with you." This will cause me to turn worship off and come to my
computer to write. Next, He will give me a sentence that introduces
the subject, something simple like, "I do not cause condemnation
but conviction...." and then he will begin the message. And when
He does begin the message, it just flows through me like a river.
Sometimes I'll halt in mid-stream and He'll give me new words, but
for the most part, the whole thing just flows out of me until it's
over.
Now
these kinds of messages are very easy to receive, because there is no
personal attachment element to the message. Whereas if He were to
say, "I know you need another computer...." And let's say I
have a desire for another computer...then I must be especially
careful not to 'make' the words go my way, just to justify what I
want.
Another
instance of that is, let's say I have an issue with someone, such as
jealousy and I have not dealt with this, it is twisting my thinking.
In a circumstance such as this, if I do not deal with this unclean
thought, this seed, and open door and demon that came with it, it may
begin to speak to me over the Lord's voice. And because I want to
hear something bad or evil about the person I'm jealous of, the Lord
will allow that voice to be heard above His, unless I recognize
immediately what I'm doing, and I stop, repent, ask forgiveness and
He kicks the demon out, cleans the slime left behind and closes the
door to that demon's buddies.
This
is THE number one rule of discernment: if you are attached to the
issue, have something to lose or gain emotionally or in any other way
with this issue and have a strong bent to be justified, you are ripe
for deception - it's very easy.
That's
why I don't trust myself with these issues, I go to my covering and
he advises me. If I sit before the Lord repenting from the heart with
great sincerity for offending Him by jealousy, He will very often run
to my rescue, wipe every tear from my eye and forgive me. Then the
conversation can resume and it most likely will be the Lord, because
I no longer have that jealousy. I've been healed.
Let
me try an illustration here. Imagine three streams converging into
one river. Let's say this river is your mind and its thinking
processes, your consciousness. And the two streams to the left are
Satan and his demons and the voice of the world trying to influence
you. The tributary to the right, this stream is Jesus.
Since
you have chosen to go deeper with the Lord, you will struggle to shut
the water gate on the two left streams. You will be tried and tested
in that area again and again, until you know yourself so well that
you rarely let anything from the left get into your head. You will
know when those waters are seeping in because the fruit will begin to
be foul thinking, retaliatory or indulging in things that you know
are distractions and extravagances.
You
will feel disturbed by an indefinable unrest, when thoughts from the
left enter your consciousness. There are also times when we are
over-stressed and tired and don't take the proper time to discern but
listen to others without first checking with the Lord. This can
happen especially if we have an attachment to the group we're
discerning with. We'll be less likely to disagree, because we want to
stay in favor. This is another area we have to watch very carefully
and not be attached, in which case suggestions from the left can also
enter in through other people.
This
is what happened to me a couple of weeks ago. The Lord revealed that
my right hand helper had been stealing from Him and I was to lovingly
confront this person with irrefutable evidence, which I did. They, of
course, denied it but later in an e-mail let it slip, "I promise
to never do anything to disappoint you again." That was a
confession that something was done. Then this same person changed
passwords, wiped out our bookkeeping records, cleaned off our
computer, shut down our Amazon account and made life impossible for
us every single day, by locking us out of every account, even our
utilities and emails...so nothing could be changed without
extraordinary time consuming effort. Some things were never
recovered. It actually worked out quite well, because we were able to
offer all these inconveniences for Trump. So, sacrifices were needed
during that time and of all the different sacrifices we could make, I
think that was probably the easiest of them.
At
the same time, a special section of our discernment team began to see
this same person in the spirit with voodoo dolls and other
instruments of torture, being sent against us. I did not take this to
the Lord for proper discernment, because I was overwhelmed with other
issues shutting down around me. I just assumed they were right. That
was my first error.
But
I did find it strange that all of a sudden other of our enemies were
doing nothing and this was the only person doing it. So now, the
logic is offered: well, this person is being used by those other
forces that were tormenting us before. Now they're channeling
everything to this person.
Well,
that doesn't really hold water, because they don't NEED that other
person to channel their wickedness through. They are well able to do
it on their own. And in fact, it's better if they show a screen that
makes that person who is innocent - guilty. So then we can fall into
false accusation and open a great big door. So, that really doesn't
work to explain why our enemies aren't attacking us anymore.
So,
I failed to properly discern and when the Lord gave me a message on
this, He allowed a Familiar spirit from the left stream of
consciousness to infect my thinking with a lie, and I passed that
onto you.
So,
if you can get a clear picture of this. The mainstream, my
consciousness had been compromised by not checking with the Lord
about these accusations. After all, they made sense, and because of
that, the water gate to the left stream from a familiar spirit was
allowed to flow through - while at the same time the Lord was
speaking to me from the right which is His living waters. So, the two
got mixed up and I falsely accused this person, while at the same
time saying many things that sounded like the Lord and were in fact
the Lord.
But
let me tell you an impersonating spirit, a look alike, sound alike
Jesus, is impossible to discern without God's grace. And there are
times He withholds that grace because we are in sin and presumption.
In this case, falsely accusing a person. And failing to check it
through Him.
This
is why I tell you, if you are a coward, DO NOT pursue a prophetic
calling. You are going to be wrong and it's going to hurt big time
and it will also scandalize others and cause you to lose face with
the community.
So,
my enemies will jump up now and say SEE! SHE'S a false prophet, she
admits it!!! No, I'm not a false prophet, I am an imperfect sinner,
saved by grace, doing my best to share with you what Jesus shares
with me. And that means, sometimes I will fail and make a mistake,
and this is one of those times. So please, forgive me.
The
upside to all of this is that we all increased our prayers for this
person. So rather than hatred, we sowed love and there has got to be
good fruit down the line from at least that.
OK,
returning to my error. I was lazy and did not discern fully. But my
husband caught it. He told me, "Honey, I have a real check in my
spirit about accusing them of witchcraft and the Lord is confirming
to me that they are not the ones behind these attacks." Well,
why didn't I get that before?? Because he was sick in bed for the
week this was going on. But when he came out of it he voiced his
concerns. When he told me that, my stomach fell to my knees and I
went to the Lord. Sure enough, Jesus confirmed over and over again
that they were not the ones behind the witchcraft; we had all been
duped.
So,
now I had to approach our discernment team with this, and it did not
go well. Satan struck a dividing blow to the most central part of my
support team. One of the viewpoints expressed was, "But I saw
this person doing voodoo, over and over again, we both saw them."
And the other member of the team said the very same. So how could
'we' be wrong??? Besides that - look at all the messages where the
Lord Himself said that that person was involved in witchcraft.
Well,
let me explain it this way. One day I met a young lady in the grocery
store covered with abalone shell jewelry from head to toe. She said
she was a Christian but asked me about reincarnation, because she met
a guy she believed she had known in a previous lifetime. They both
claimed that they saw each other in their past lives in the spirit -
together. Does that prove reincarnation is real? Certainly not. It
only proves they both saw the same thing - if they're discerning that
properly.
Does
that mean it happened? Well, I think it is safe to assume that the
moving picture happened for both of them. But who was doing the
projection? Who was behind the projector in the theatre of their
minds? Obviously, it was not Truth or God - so the only other source
it could have been was their own mind or the devil's.
Well,
I have enough faith in my team to know they probably did not invent
that, even by the power of suggestion. I believe Satan or his agent
was operating that projector that played the scene of an innocent
person performing voodoo against us. But the effects of the voodoo
were real! Of course they were, and the guilty parties used an
innocent victim to cover their identity and to open a demonic door on
the intercessors, a door of false accusation against a brother. That,
in turn, gave the enemy license to come in and sift the intercessors
as they had never been sifted before.
And
that's exactly what happened. The demons flocked in and attacked them
viciously and are still attacking. Because the door got opened. And
the enemy succeeded in causing division between us, because we have
not agreed on the source. Good shot, Satan. But it's not over yet.
God ALWAYS turns evil to good.
The
embarrassment behind making an error of this sort is monumental, and
once more it calls into question, what else in their intercessory
experiences are also false? This is too painful for some to confront,
just too painful. If we are operating in the spirit on a level we
only dream and hope for, and we make an error - it throws ALL our
experiences into question. It threatens our very sanity.
But
Jesus is Lord even of our sanity. And we cannot permit an error into
our lives people. We cannot value experience, status and prowess
above Truth - EVER. And if we love Him with our WHOLE hearts, we will
eventually be willing to at least consider that we might have been
wrong about some things.
And
here's something I want to interject. It's rare that you're wrong
about everything. There may have been many exceptional experiences
that were real. And a couple that weren't. But that doesn't mean you
discredit all of them. It's gravel and peas - you have to separate
them, and see which is the Truth. And that is very tedious and takes
time.
This
begs the question, how do I know I am not wrong? Well, that's a good
question. I can answer from experience, whenever my husband is firmly
convicted that something is wrong, and it is confirmed to me through
the Bible Promises, through communion readings, even through new
books, such as Rhema, through rhemas on the web site. When it is
confirmed over and over again, if I do not listen, I end up crashing
and burning. And let me tell you, crashing and burning is much more
painful than admitting I've made a mistake.
You
see, God cannot use you in any rising prophetic and influential
ministry if you are not willing to be broken and submit to truth
before the whole world. He can use you to some degree but not to the
extent He had in mind when He began to work with you. Why? Because
you will sow error and cause division where ever you go and you will
be consumed by the demons. They will eat you for lunch because of the
doors you have opened by error and presumption.
There
are masquerading Jesus demons whose main mission is to cause a person
with great prophetic promise and healing gifts to become an
independent, unteachable spirit. And the Lord has to keep them at a
lower level until they are able to see that they are misled.
In
other words, the demon convinces the victims that they are always
right and every one else is beneath them and wrong. They play on our
need to be right, our Pride and self-righteousness. And if we don't
strangle that demon to death, they will control us for the rest of
our lives. And good counsel sent by God will be rejected over and
over again and these prophetic people will be untouchable by any
amount of reasoning, no matter how anointed. Because they have an
air-tight relationship with Jesus, and Jesus can't be wrong. Of
course, Jesus is never wrong but not every spirit looking like,
sounding like, acting like Jesus is Him.
Don't
be discouraged here, dear Heartdwellers, by your fruit you will know
yourself. You may have to wait and see. Many times these souls - and
I can speak for them because I have been one. Many times these souls
have the most honorable and loving intentions. There is only one flaw
-they are unteachable, they do not listen, they insist they are right
while at the same time presenting a very humble demeanor. But then
they go their own way and it leaves a trail of disorder. By their
fruits, you will know them.
This
is why the Lord waited 40 years before He gave me this ministry. I
was one of those souls.
Well,
the worst fallout from these situations is a divided community, hurt
feelings, wanting to give up and quit because what if NONE of it was
the Lord? No, no, no, don't go that way. You are playing into Satan's
hands if you go that route. You have a choice: die to yourself or die
to the ministry God wanted to give you and just go on being an
everyday Christian, dreaming that someday you will be used by God in
those prophetic circles. That's not much of a choice, if you ask me.
So,
I am leaving you all with this. I was wrong, please forgive me for
misleading you. And pray for us that we can all be in agreement,
because how can two walk together if they do not agree or trust one
another? We need our faith and trust in hearing the Lord to be
restored to each member of this team. We need to confess that Jesus
is Lord of our discernment and He has mandated that brothers dwell
together in unity, so He can pour the anointing over them.
So
at this point, I kinda ran out of things to say, and I said, 'Lord, I
have done my best here, is there anything You wish to add?'
"Clare, you are not free from Pride but I still love you, I still work with you, I still speak through you. What you are is willing to be proven wrong. And for Me, that is an indispensable quality.
"My children, you stand before men with many facades. You stand before Me, naked. I know when you stand and when you fall. I have numbered every hair on your head, should you not then open your hearts to the wisdom of those I have sent to guide you? No man is an island in the Kingdom of God. No man stands without faults in the Kingdom of God. Every man, ordained into an extended ministry, in time accumulates a support system ordained by Me to withstand the onslaughts of the enemy.
"But the one onslaught that is most dangerous is division and the prime instigators of this are Pride, Jealousy and Fear. These have very subtle fine-tuned circuits of behavior in every soul that can be set off by just the right circumstances. And none of you are free from this influence. Therefore, pay close attention to your hearts and do not allow the enemy to score a victory in undermining any ministry I have made you a part of.
"There are three ways to go with these situations: a church split or a church healing or a church sending forth and birthing new ministries."
By
the way, that's something I really believe in. I really believe in
sending forth new ministries.
"This is the typical way the enemy splits a group of believers. Splits and divides My Body and brings a ministry down. Have nothing to do with that. Everyone loses.
"I have come, that you may have life more abundantly, with great peace and brotherly love and I hate those who divide and separate brothers. Know yourselves better than the enemy knows you and this will not happen. I do honor mothers and fathers of ministries, and if they should go astray or err in discernment, I will bring them back to the truth. Pray for them, but do not undermine them. If they are leaders seeking only the truth, then pray and allow Me to correct them - and they will be corrected. If they are not leaders seeking only the truth, have nothing to do with them.
"I am a God of peace and order. I build up and I tear down, therefore hearken to My voice and stand before Me in abject humility, knowing that you are My Children and I adore you and no weapon formed against you from the outside will prosper, unless you allow it to from the inside.
"I am protecting you, dear ones. I am calling for a new commitment to truth and holiness in your midst so that the enemy will not overcome you. Therefore be vigilant, be charitable, be patient and be wrong when necessary. No weapon from the outside will then succeed."
Source:
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