May
the peace of Christ reign in our lives and make this season holy as
we gather our families together.
Well,
my dearest family, the Lord has truly brought forth His wisdom for
this time when families see one another again. We know that for some,
this may be the last time we see them on this Earth and so it is a
perfect opportunity to heal and love one another.
The
enemy, every year, sends out armies of demons to cause division,
misunderstanding and wounding in the family. First between husband
and wife and then between siblings and relatives. Knowing this ahead
of time, we can be prepared both by spiritual warfare and
strengthened in virtue, knowing that only love and its fruits will
conquer evil.
So,
yesterday when I had my communion service, the readings were from
Colossians 3, and they truly brought home everything the Lord has
been teaching us about our relationships with others and how easily
we get seeds of resentment, with which the enemy builds strongholds
of unforgiveness. I've been monitoring myself very carefully and
notice I have 'buttons' or 'hot spots,' places where I recoil inside
and begin grudging and complaining internally. Although I don't let
it show externally, most of the time, I feel it inside and it takes
the joy out of whatever I was doing.
Paul
addresses this very thing in Colossians 3 beginning at verse 12.
Because you are God's chosen ones, holy and beloved, clothe
yourselves with heartfelt mercy, with kindness, humility, meekness
and patience.
I've
had to come to terms with the truth that I am the Lord's Beloved and
Bride before I am my mother's daughter, a niece, a sister or mother
of children. Therefore, the Lord is calling me to act as His disciple
before any earthly office, and my heart must be His towards my
family. This calls for exceptional self-control, and/or a healing of
memories that are painful and profound forgiveness. You may be the
only example of Christ's love in your family. How important then is
it to set aside all grudges and painful memories of past
misunderstandings and injuries.
The
Scripture continues, Bear with one another; forgive whatever
grievances you have against one another. Forgive as the Lord has
forgiven you.
In
addition to this, we are called to demonstrate our love by deferring
to one another, showing respect and preference to their concerns. For
instance, which home we will gather in, who will make the
preparations? I can't count the number of times there was strife over
who deserved to have Christmas at their house, Christmas at someone
else's house - and how you don't want to leave out one set of
relatives for the other - and so on. We can't possibly please
everyone, but we can defer to some and give an example of generosity
and love.
Over
all these virtues put on love, which binds the rest together and
makes them perfect.
Without
this love, kindliness and meekness, even the finest preparations go
sour when there is strife and insensitivity. We can pray against
demonic strongholds in family members and make their demons wait
outside the door while we enjoy sweet fellowship. Make 'em wait
outside the door with our own demons! But Christ's peace must reign
in your hearts - the Scripture goes on to say - since as members of
the one body you have been called to that peace.
The
next verse in the Scriptures was what hit me the hardest, and I have
a favor to ask of you guys along with it. "Dedicate
yourselves to thankfulness." Wow. That really struck me,
because thankfulness is the first line of defense against demonic
attacks mentally, emotionally. If you're in a state of praise,
worship and thankfulness, it's very hard for them to penetrate with
resentment, strife, bitterness. It just can't enter when you're in
the sweet space of Thanksgiving!
The
Lord's even teaching us to give thanks for those resentments and
bitterness - things that CAUSE that. And that, in turn, will cause
the demons to flee, because they cannot get a foothold in our hearts
- they'll look for someone else to bug!
I've
been finding that each morning when I come before the Lord to repent
of anger, unforgiveness, selfishness and pride that I end
thanking the Father for all He has done for us. It just pours out of
me, I'm so grateful. During the day, when I am tempted to lose my
patience, somehow I begin singing thank you songs!!! I know this is
the Lord because my attitude quickly drifts to impatience and thank
you is the furthest thing from my mind!
It
continues, Let the word of Christ, rich as it is, dwell in you. In
wisdom made perfect, instruct and admonish one another. Sing
gratefully to God from your hearts in psalms, hymns, and inspired
songs. Whatever you do, whether in speech or in action, do it in
the name of the Lord Jesus.
Wow!
Drive this car to the grocery store, in the name of the Lord Jesus, I
won't be cutting people off - I'll be very, very deferring to the
traffic around me.
And
then the last part is, Give thanks to God the Father through Him.
Wow! The really explains why I've been so riveted on the Father in
the morning, thanking Him profusely for loving and caring for us.
And
of course, this ring that He gave me reminds me of His tremendous
kindness.
Knowing
the stress that this season can generate, I'm going to ask a favor of
you, Heartdwellers. Would you please post all your favorite thank you
songs and we will put a "thank you, God" playlist together
that you can add to your collection of songs so that you can stay in
a place of thanksgiving when the waters get rough. I can't put the
songs up, that would be dishonest, but I can at least list the
artists and names of the songs. What first comes to my mind is Julie
True's song Thank
You.
I find myself singing that when I get up in the morning. I have this
terrible habit of singing with my mind and not singing with my vocal
chords, which I have to change. But it's really a sweet, sweet song.
Once I have collected all the thank you songs together, I will make a
playlist in PDF format and we'll put it up on the Website where the
other PDF's go.
Let's
all sing gratefully to God from our hearts in psalms, hymns, and
inspired songs, and stay free from the seeds of strife and bitterness
these seasonal demons are out to incite us with, to steal our peace
and joy.
The
Lord Jesus is guiding and forming us, Heartdwellers. May we receive
His wisdom and patience with gratitude and perseverance.
Carol
and I had a conversation about the continuing stability of the world,
despite threats from wars and rumors of wars. The Lord has told us
minute-by-minute, but it is dragging on. Things ramp up and it looks
like war is about to erupt, then things cool off. No war yet. And
though we prayed for mercy, we didn't expect mercy???
Carol
was asking the Lord if He would keep us here until Trump was in
office and He began speaking to her, "I
do not want you to fear, or relax the vigil of prayer. And this
tension of wondering will help you. DO NOT relax into thinking you
may have yet another 4 months."
Oh,
how foolish we are, guys. Oh, how foolish we are... Here is mercy, a
reprieve, nations backing down again. Each time they ramp up right to
the edge, and then they back down again. But the Lord continues to
keep us on the edge!
Lord,
truly what is going on and what do I tell them?
I heard His voice immediately, "Tell
them I am waiting. There is a groundswell of conversions going on in
this moment as countries are waking up to the agenda of the New World
Order. There are pockets of conversions going on that are beginning
to swell and take with them those around them. As this is happening,
it is not the time for any dramatic change. I have told you, you
would have peace that you have done all you could do when the time
came. "Have
you had this peace, Clare?"
No,
Lord, in fact I've made a mental note. I have not.
"The
world is beginning to see that politics without God are more
entrapping than politics with God. Pres. Putin has been better to his
people than Pres. Obama. Waking up from communism and embracing the
moral standards of the Faith, protecting the concept of family and
nurturing her people. Giving the poor opportunities, building bunkers
for her population...preventing Sharia law. While Obama is counting
on the decimation of the masses without protection from nuclear war,
and allowing America's laws to be changed by Muslims."
Lord,
I don't understand. You have said this was scripted, yet Putin's
spoken agendas are far different than Obama's. I don't get it.
"I
have told you before, Dear One, Pres. Putin is not a free agent. If
he were, things would be different. The overthrow of the Elite is the
next thing on My agenda. As the peoples of the world wake up to the
manipulation, slaughter and total disregard for the lives of the
common man; as they wake up, they can and will overthrow this evil
force.
"More
and more from higher levels are falling out of agreement with the
plans to annihilate the populations of the world. More and more in
very high levels are beginning to see: what they have planned to end
others, will in fact be their own demise. THIS IS THE EFFECT OF YOUR
PRAYERS.
"As
we stay on the edge of our seats, interceding, massive movements are
beginning to emerge. Those who were with the agenda are turning away
and joining others in a counter-movement."
I
asked Him: Does this mean the whole world will convert?
"I
wish..."
He said wistfully. "There
are still plenty with controlling, greedy agendas completely in
league with the devil. It will be a battle, a big battle. But I am
with those who are with Me. Though they be outnumbered, I am on their
side, doing things that will give them an advantage over their
enemies.
"I
AM FOR WHAT IS RIGHT AND GOOD. I AM FOR A PEOPLE WHO ARE FULLY AWAKE
TO THEIR SINS AND KNOW THEY HAVE OPENED THE DOOR TO THIS OPPRESSION
BY THEIR WORLDLINESS. THEY HAVE ONLY TO REPENT AND PAY ATTENTION TO
ME AND WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON. YOUR WORLD HAS BEEN SO CONSUMED WITH
CAPITALISM AND ACQUISITION, THEY SIDED WITH WHOEVER COULD GIVE THEM
THE MOST 'BANG FOR THEIR BUCK' AS THE IDIOM GOES.
"Now
they are seeing how counter-productive that actually is playing out
to be. In short, they are waking up to their insatiable lust for
power and wealth and seeing that what lies before them is a wasteland
of their indifference, created by manipulation and greed...'Give me
my candy and I'll vote for you.'
"While
secular humanism, which holds to the ideals of Satanism, has won over
the minds of leaders in the past, they are now seeing the continuing
opportunity for a one world dictator is very dangerous."
At
this point, my eyes were starting to close involuntarily. I said,
"Lord, I am so tired."
He
answered me, "This
is a start a good start on the message. Go to bed."
That was around 2:00am in the morning...
An
hour later and I'm back and bushy-tailed. I began to discern and
double-check discernment on the first half of this message. I have
been feeling a little torn between what is happening in the political
world that might impact the salvation of souls, and the continuing
word of the Lord that it could begin at any moment. That seems so
counter-productive to getting Mr. Trump in office. I received the
confirmation I was looking for, that the first part of this message
is indeed Jesus speaking to me. You know, I worry because sometimes
my pride...sometimes He has to discipline my pride by letting me fail
in discernment. So, I try to be very careful.
And
He began speaking in that moment. "Clare,
you have continued to be vigilant to lower yourself, and this
lowliness has brought about My fidelity in speaking through you."
Oh,
Lord, I weep at the sight of my sins and unworthiness. I feel so
riddled through with pride and judgment. I positively hate those
thoughts, and that part of my character.
"And
that hatred is half the battle. Keep calling on Me, Clare, keep
calling on Me. Your continuing prayers to be lower and lower keep Me
coming back and fine-tuning you. Oh, how pleasing these prayers are
to Me. IF ONLY MY PEOPLE KNEW HOW POWERFUL MEEKNESS IS BEFORE ME AND
THE CITIZENS OF HEAVEN."
Lord,
I want to be little, please keep helping me to be little. And I miss
our times together, Jesus. I miss You.
I
said this because lately I've grown a little tired with my wonderful
worship list ... and felt the need for what I call 'Sacred Silence'
and just being still before Him. So, I haven't had the kind of
worship experiences that include music; I have preferred the silence.
And Jesus has begun speaking to me immediately, so I didn't really
get to dwell in His presence and worship Him.
Just
after I said this, I began to feel my head resting against His warm
shoulder. And the sweetness of His presence drew me up and out of
myself into His tender Love.
He
said, "We
need this, Clare; you need this, and I need this...truly We have
needed this kind of time together."
But
now in this moment, all I can do is bask in His presence in total
silence, no music or worship with words per se... just the
overwhelming sweetness and security of His arms and my longing to
shower Him with my gratitude. There is nothing this world has that
can even begin to compare with truly loving God.
Well,
as I entered deeper and deeper into this Sacred silence, my body
relaxed and I began to feel insecure sitting in a chair, so I went to
lay down, my head still resting over His heart.
Ezekiel
is so sweet - he always honors that. And if I start to get
distracted, he said, "Isn't the Lord present to you right now?
Don't get distracted!"
So,
as I lay there with my head on His shoulder, my mind would wander in
and out of His presence...drawn away by silly distractions of the
world...silly concerns, thorns actually. And somehow, He would draw
me back to that very pure place over His heart.
Finally,
I was so relaxed I fell asleep. I awoke at 4:00 and realized I was
much too tired to keep going.
So,
here I am at 12:00 in the afternoon, wanting very much to hear
whatever else He has to say and get it to you, my dear Heartdwelling
Family.
This
brings me to the struggle I've had lately. I'm going to ask all of
you to pay particular attention to my words and read the transcript
of this when Carol gets it up, because if you don't pay really close
attention to every word, you're going to misunderstand what I am
saying and go off in the wrong direction.
I've
been perplexed by the Lord's absolute insistence on intercession, as
though the world was ending tomorrow... and yet the continued
waiting. I know He said 'minute-by-minute', but lately I've been
feeling that minute-by-minute is being extended and I haven't had the
peace He spoke of several months ago. At that time, He said something
to the effect of, "You will know it is time because you will
feel you have done everything that was yours to do, and you will have
great peace." I know what great peace feels like: there's a
sense of finality and accomplishment where you can finally let it go
and rest in His pleasure that you've finished the work given you.
I
don't feel that, dear friends.
Rather
I am feeling, "Come on let's get on with it. Let's finish up."
Well, this whole idea of minute-by-minute waiting doesn't exactly
make sense to me in light of the world situation. I really believe
Mr. Trump is being raised up by God. I really feel that the tide is
turning against the Elite and I, in my foolish human reasoning -
totally ignorant mind you - really can't make these two puzzle pieces
quite fit together.
So,
I'm going back to the conversation I had with Carol. And basically,
He said that He wants us all on the edge of our seats, waiting with
Him - but pressing in with intercession for the world. And He's
allowing us to feel this urgent calling, because He is ramping us up
in prayer.
Heartdwellers,
our prayers, combined with others, ARE MAKING A DIFFERENCE!! If He
were to tell us that the Rapture was far off, would we be praying
this way with so much passion and intensity? Well, no, I wouldn't be.
I'd be more focused on working and even having a little tiny bit of
recreation, like an innocent movie once every two weeks. But He has
kept us busy nearly every moment of the day.
Now,
being totally transparent with you all, because I really want you to
get it, I think to myself, 'Well, one of our listeners told us of a
certain popular visionary that said the Rapture was more than a
decade away!' So I'm thinking to myself, 'What's up with this, do I
have it all wrong? Because it hasn't happened yet? And Jesus says
"any minute?'"
Then
I look at Israeli News live, which maybe I shouldn't look at? Not
sure on this one guys. I don't look at any other news sites at all.
But I think I might be skating near the edge here.
And
the Lord addressed this confusion of mine, my fears about myself and
hearing Jesus and Jesus only, clearly, and He did it through the
Bible Promises. When I asked Him about Israeli News Live and if I
should share one of their videos, I opened to Marriage, and this line
stood out, "Drink waters from your own cistern. Flowing waters
from your own well." Proverbs 5:15
This
has always meant 'Don't drink from other sources.' That's the history
of that Scripture verse.
I
truly got it in that moment. Jesus has assembled a group here, a
group of heartdwellers who love to rest in His heart. He is forming
us in a very specific way, unique to us. And the way in which He is
leading us is not just prophetic, but intensely focused on preparing
us with the virtues He loves in His Bride.
He
continues to stretch us and draw us out and up into higher realms of
prayer, self-sacrifice and brotherly love. What He is doing with us
is unique to us. What He is doing with other visionaries is unique to
them. In other words, don't be tasting the waters of other wells,
don't be comparing, don't be questioning. Trust Him that He is indeed
filling this well with fresh, anointed, living waters and He is doing
it in His own special way, unique to us.
One
thing I do know about myself, is that I don't get really serious
unless the situations around me get really serious...then I buckle
down. I think that's probably human nature though. And Jesus is
getting us to buckle down and expand our horizons. He is taking us
into new realms of our own particular crosses in love, prayer and
sacrifice. Places where, before, we tended towards indifference, but
now we hurt intensely for those destined for Hell.
As
we continue to pray, not only are we growing, but a grassroots
movement is beginning to emerge against Satan's plan for the nations.
What wonderful fruit from our prayers this is!! Of course, not only
our prayers but others as well. Still, we can see with this little
well, the Lord is forming us and changing the world and He's doing it
in His own way; imparting understanding to us little by little in a
specific way intended for His Heartdwellers and the plans He has for
us, now and in Eternity.
So,
just to be sure...I didn't say the Rapture was years or decades off,
as some say it is. Rather, I said the Lord wants us on the edge of
our seats, putting forth all our best efforts to finish our
assignments and pray passionately for those we do not even
know...even the nations who are considered our enemies. And pray as
if it were ALL going to end tomorrow.
At
this point I asked the Lord, 'Do You have You anything to add, Jesus?
"My
Brides, it is just as she has said. Again, she has spoken My Heart to
you."
